Content in Fatigue

I’ve been tired lately, very tired. In fact, I’ve been exhausted.

On most days I wish God could give my days an extra hour.
Or just slow down time so I can get more done.

But I’m alright.
I could say I’m overly satisfied.

You see, our bodies were not made to rest.
They possess deep wells of energy.
They were made to work.
And work makes you tired. Any work can exhaust you.
Yet a special type of work can leave you content in fatigue.

Remember when we were younger?
When we played all day with friends?
When we ran around and jumped up and down?
Remember how tired we would be at the end of the day?
Ready to even fall asleep in our dinner plates?
What a drag eating would be.
But remember how happy, satisfied and content we were?
We went to sleep excited to do the same tiring thing all over as soon as the sun came up again.

I don’t know about you,
But I feel that this is a lesson to learn from the inner child.
That childhood spirit can help us identify the fatigue that brings us joy.

You see, work is supposed to use your energy in some way or another.
But it’s only when you manage to find work through play and learn to play in your work, that you would be satisfied.

Allow me to say, this is nothing new.
It’s just a simpler way of finding your purpose.
Here’s a trick I learnt, it worked for me.

Ask yourself this: 

What did you want to be when you were a kid? 

Before grownups limited your imagination telling you to be ‘Realistic’

What was the one thing you saw that made you think “WOW!”?

What did you think about becoming when you were alone?

Now take that, make that, create that, bring it back to life.
UNBECOME all you are and intentionally create who you want to be.
Let it be destructive if it has to be.
Be radical about it
Be intentional about where you invest your energy.

Be tired, exhausted, and fatigued.
But let that fatigue bring you so much joy that when you shut your eyes at night, you cannot wait to start again tomorrow.
Let the words on your death bed be “I AM TIRED”
~Nala👑